I just felt like saying something tonight. Should it spirtually profound? Funny? or Humility that this is like speaking to an empty room...being no one reads my 7 blogs.. LOL
But in a form of journaling, I just want to give an amazing account of yet another awesome church service in where the Holy Spirit shows up during worship. Two times in the last three services (that I attended) the Holy Spirit was so present you could feel and almost see Him (with your eyes closed of course.) Two weeks ago it was like if I reached over my head in this certian spot, I could just grap a peice of the heavens and then tonight it was like fog... fog surrounding us that was thick and full of Peace. We serve an awesome God, King, Almighty.
During worship tonight I closed my eyes, like I usually do, and i kept thinking if a mass of people were in a solitary place and worshiped with all our hearts, would God show up like he did for the Isrealites? I crave to feel His very realness all around me, a cloud, fire...fog :)
This of course was before the fog...I just now realized that..LOL
I felt like I was seeing nations of people worshiping God but it was less important that we were all in one place and more important that we were scattered among the earth. Worshiping just as strong as if we were a nation, yet being individually set among people who would not understand. How easy it is to pray at a meal when the whole room is christian....how challenging it is to bow your head by yourself. Am I the only one who feels that way? I think not.
I pray I stand as bold in a place with no believers as I can in a church full of them. I pray strength to shine as bright and not be tempted to down play my big belief because another might not "understand". I pray I am as tall in Christ, as intense in prayer and outwardly in love with my king as I could have ever been in secret.
